Sleepless

I've been lying in bed for over an hour, and no luck, can't fall asleep. it seems I just think and think and think. try as I might, I can't shut my mind off.

So i got up and here I am posting to this thing. this is my second blog. i pulled the first one down because I hated getting crap becasue I wrote my thoughts and they upset some people. in retrospect, shame on me for sucumbing to their feelings and not being honest and writting what I wanted.

i miss the days of working at the arts center and havig pitchers of bud light with phil and tim at lou's. man could we put down the beer. i feel bad because at that time brenda was living with me and i think i spent more time working and drinking and at the arts center than anything. it wasn't fair to her.

i haven't been fair to many women in my life, i wish i had the words to say how sorry i am for all the hurt i've caused. i really don't know the root of it.

the new job is good, but it is contributing to my sleeplessness. most of the things i lie in bed and think about are work things. maybe i should start having a glass of red wine or two before bed, the anti-oxidents can't be bad either. that and ten tablespoons a week of tomatoe sauce. this bud light will have to do for now.

i'm not sure if i should like to my blog on my website, www.knobenterprises.com

why the hell not?